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Pringlesmom
11-09-2006, 07:23 PM
I wasn't going to depress all of you and post this, but I now have a reason to. A while ago, I was just plain old upset one day. I couldn't figure it out. Tim asked me why was I acting so weird. At first, I didn't know, but then I put it together. It was the 2-month anniversary of Scoops's passing.
Scoops, Pringle, and all of your babies have been on my mind a lot lately. I have recently been so upset and sad about not having one right now. I tried to sell my mom on it again, but it is a clear NO. She loved them too, don't think she doesn't, but she loves them too much to watch them and myself go through anything traumatic like it has been over here the past 2 years. Tim and I have started talking about finding a place, so I expect to have one within a year from now...so I will just have to be patient.
Anyway, the other day I was driving home from teaching, exhausted, and all of a sudden I had a flashback from when I found that Scoops had threw up blood in his hedgie bag as I was getting ready to take him for an emergency visit to U of Penn (b\c things were bad enough as it was). I replayed the whole thing in my head..mind you, I was driving. It's a wonder I didn't it something. I flashed back at how he sounded when he did it, how I checked and screamed, how I pulled him out and held him to my chest...etc. I don't know where it all came from, but it just replayed in my head.
Today, I went to Atlantic City to the NJ teaching convention. I was with a friend and we were wandering up and down...any what do I see, but a HEDGEHOG!!! I nearly feaked out. Ok, I did freak out. I was so excited and it made me so happy. He was part of a vendor called Snakes-N-Scales. They take in unwanted pets and those found in unfortunate situations. The travel to schools to educate so that is why they were there. I wanted to hold him so bad but they wouldn't let me. I even flashed my cell phone picture of me holding Pringle, but they didn't budge. They little guy was sleeping and he was clean and in a clean cage. That made my day. We went back later and one of the presentors was holding him and at least I got to pet him. He was explaining how they are nocturnal and need a wheel, etc. He was on the money. I again tried to hold him, but they said no. I found out he was a boy and his name was Spike. He had a darker mask. He was so cute. Here is the link if anyone is interested:
www.snakes-n-scales.com
Then we went outlet shopping. I went into Borders and one of the first books I looked at had a hedgehog on the cover. They are few and far between, but it just so happened I ran right across one! I had to buy it. It was a Christmas book about animals getting ready for Christmas and there are little doors in it like an advent calendar.
The point to my whole story, and yes there is a point :winkgrin: is that I was so completely upset about Scoops lately that these two very random, very coincidental sightings today have given me more peace about the situation that I have had in a while. A bit ago, shortly after Scoops passed, I posted a thread titled Scoops's Signs. These two things today made me smile and I really believe they were sent to me by my babies in Heaven. I'm sorry if I sound delusional, but I just find it so amazing how I was so completly upset about it lately and then these two things happen. I know it was meant for me and for my boys to say, "It's alright mom. We're ok."
Thanks for reading.

Pringlesmom
11-09-2006, 07:29 PM
Oh, and I looked on that website to find out more about Spike but he wasn't there. I tried to email them, but I got the email back saying it wasn't in Western type or something. Weird.

AlbertaGirl
11-09-2006, 07:53 PM
It's true. Your boys knew you were upset and sent you some signs to let you know that they are OK. I'm glad that you're feeling better now - its so hard to lose a loved one.

herbiesmom
11-10-2006, 12:03 AM
and what a great hedgie Mom you must have been for them to still be so spiritually bonded to you. It is meant to be, you will have more hedgies. I believe that is the other part of the sign. You are healing and are receiving help to do so.
Peace and prayers