AnimalsR4Me
11-16-2006, 05:59 PM
I'm sorry if this offends anyone. I just wrote it up, and I need a place to share it. It's super long, you don't have to read it all if you don't want to, but I just needed to let it all out.
Dear God,
I would like your help in the following for this Christmas. I would have written to Santa, but I don’t think he could fulfill my requests.
I know I havn't been the best person this year, but I'm trying really hard. I know I've hurt a few people, and possibly broken a few hearts, but please God, understand that those hearts were not "ment for me" as they thought that they were. I deeply regret having to break them, but when the person behind the heart started telling me that his heart belonged to me 2 days after we started talking, and long before we ever met, I knew that this was not the direction my heart was wanting to head.
And dear God, please forgive me for the turmoil I have caused at home. It seems my leaving for college, and then returning on weekends for visits, has caused great problems with my dad and stepmom. I never ment for my visits to cause them to fight. Dear God, please help them resolve their issues. I love my stepmom just as much as I love my real mom, and I couldn't bare to have her walk out of my life, just as so many others have done.
Also, God, could you please help my real mom understand my ways. It seems that she is jealous because I spend so much time with my stepmom. Please help my mom understand that it's not that I don't love her just as much, or more, than my stepmom, it's merely that my stepmom lives with me, and is always available, and is much easier to talk to. Please help my mom realize that I love her too, even though sometimes I might not tell her, or show her as much as I should. And God please help her find her own way through her relationships. She recently got out of a bad relationship, and is now happy with the man she is with, but as hard as I try God, I can't bring myself to like him. Please help her understand that it might just take time. This man brought 5 children into our lives, 5 of the brattiest, snottiest, rudest children I've ever met. I'm trying very hard to like them God, and I know it's not their fault that they havn't learned to brush their teeth, or flush the toilet, or even say excuse me after they burp, but please help them learn some manners and some respect. I also know it's not their fault that they were never taught that calling someone a "bit**" or saying "you're not my mother, I don't have to listen to you" when you are in someone elses home, is not only unacceptable but disrespectful, but God, please help them learn to be polite, especially to my mother. My mom washes their dirt filled, stinky clothes because their own mother is too much of a drunk to care about them, and my mother feeds them, and houses them, and puts new clothes on their backs, because again, their own mother is too drunk to care about them, but please God, help me understand why my mother treats her boyfriends children like gold, but treats me like her psychologist. Please help me understand why my mother can spend $100 on her boyfriend a pair of boots for christmas, and spend over $500 getting her car "tricked out", but has not contributed a cent towards my college education, and didn't even buy me a birth present this year. I am not gready God, but I find it unfair. Please help me understand why my mother finds it necessary, and even acceptable to tell me the ins and outs of her personal and sexual life as if I am her psychatrist(sp) and am getting paid to know what she caught her ex boyfriend doing. Please give me the strength to not spit on her ex boyfriend, even though in my heart, I know that he didn't do what she is accusing him of, and that my mom is just looking for attention, and trying to make me hate him.
And my dear God, who I've always counted on to bring me happiness and joy, please help me deal with my roommate. It seems as if I've gotten one of the worst possible roommates. Please give me the strength to avoid from duct taping her to the ceiling, and from nailing the metal window closed. I realize it isn't possible to nail a metal window closed, but at this point in time, I'm willing to try. Please help her realize that I am always cold, I have poor circulation, and by keeping the window open 24/7, even on the coldest days we've had so far, she's making me miserable. Also, please help her understand God that it's not polite, or acceptable to lend out my stuff without asking me. Also help her to be more tolorant of my phone conversations. I realize that I shouldn't be on the phone at 2:00 a.m. but when my friend needs someone to talk to, and I just need to cry, sometimes, 2:00 a.m. is the only time I feel comfortable enough in my room to do it. And please help her understand that her chomping and slurping of her food is driving me nuts. Please also give me a bit more patience and tolorance towards her. Everything shes doing lately is driving me crazy, no matter how hard I try not to let it. Right now shes eating popcorn, and I want to tell her to stop because she's chomping it, and it's very annoying. I don't find it fair that I have to have my head phones on 24/7 it seems like, in order to prevent myself from wanting to thwap her with a frozen salmon. I'm not paying all this money to be unhappy and as miserable as I am here, but please give me the strength to see the good in where I'm at, and help me apprichate it.
One more thing God, please keep my nephew and sister happy, healthy, and fed. My nephew means the world to me. I love that little boy more than anything else in this world, and I can't imagine my life without him. I never knew that it was possible to love someone as much as I love Kael, and I know that if anything ever happened to him, I wouldn't be able to continue my life. There are many people in the world who are much stronger than I am, but my life would seize to exist without Kael. He is my everything. He is the reason I wake up in the morning, the reason I go to sleep at night, the reason the world continues to revolve for me, and the reason I am still alive today. Please God, wrap your arms around this little boy, and protect him from all of the worlds harm, since I am unable to do so myself. You see, Kael lives in Arizona, and I have only seen him a handful of times since he was born, and he is now 3. I want to hold him forever, and protect him from everything, but because he is so far away, I'm unable to. Please assure him that I love him very much, and I'm thinking about him every single day of my life. I know my sister is doing her absolute best at taking care of him, but I know it's hard being a single mom. Please help her help herself. Please give her the strength and wisdom to keep her job she has now, and please help her give a good life to my nephew. He deserves everything good in this world, and I understand that it is unobtainable for my sister right now, but please just help her know that I love her, and I believe in her, and I trust that she is doing the absolute best she can, and please let her know that if theres anything I can do to help with lil man, that all she has to do is call me. Please also help her understand that I have commitments here in Wisconsin, at school, that I cannot abandon and move to Arizona. Please help her understand this, and not be angry with me.
And God, please keep my dad safe and healthy, and help him relax a little, and stop drinking so much. He's had a rough year, and he's always uptight. He yells way more than necessary, because he bottles up all of his frustrations, and then he takes them out on my stepmom and I. Please help him understand that it's not healthy to do this, and it's not necessary. It's making my stepmom and I very bitter towards him. Please help him relax a bit. Also God, could you please help him to stop drinking so much. It seems that he is drinking almost a 36 pack, if not more, a day, every day, and this isn't healthy. I love my dad very much, and I don't want to lose him any time soon. My dad has always been there for me, he's always supplied me with everything I need, and for that, I am very grateful. My dad has always been apart of my life, and I've always known how much he loves me, and because of that, I have it much better than some others in this world, but please just help him work on the little things. I am very grateful for him, and I wouldn't trade him for anything, but sometimes, he's hard to live with. Please help him see that, and help him change.
God, please help my brother and my little sister know how much they mean to me. I know I'm not always nice to my little sister, but I truely love her. And I know I don't show my brother how much I love him, but I really do. My brother and I have become very close this last year, and I want to thank you and God for that. It's given me an opportunity to see into his life, and that's more precious than any gift. God, please help my little sister. It seems as if she's gotten her life started on a rough track. She's only 13 God, and I fear she's already into drugs, and drinking, and I know she's already having sex. God, please help her. She's had a rough life so far, she's been drug through the mud, and often mistreated, and I fear she doesn't know that we all love her very much. Please help her understand that she is loved very much, although we may not show it. She often has an attitude problem, and as hard as we try, we often get angry with her. I feel bad because I am often short with her, but it's very hard to be kind sometimes. Please help her see that it's not her that we are upset with, it's her actions, and that we truly do love her.
And God please keep my chinchillas safe and healthy. I love them very much, and because I'm not at home during the week, I fear that something horrible will happen to them, please help them stay safe!
One last thing God, I just wanted to say thank you for everyone you've brought into my life this past year. They mean a lot to me, and everyone has shown me something about myself, and my life. And thank you, for giving me the opportunity to go spend Christmas with my nephew. As I stated before, he means the absolute world to me, and I'm so happy and grateful that I get to spend Christmas with him.
Thank you,
Tami
Dear God,
I would like your help in the following for this Christmas. I would have written to Santa, but I don’t think he could fulfill my requests.
I know I havn't been the best person this year, but I'm trying really hard. I know I've hurt a few people, and possibly broken a few hearts, but please God, understand that those hearts were not "ment for me" as they thought that they were. I deeply regret having to break them, but when the person behind the heart started telling me that his heart belonged to me 2 days after we started talking, and long before we ever met, I knew that this was not the direction my heart was wanting to head.
And dear God, please forgive me for the turmoil I have caused at home. It seems my leaving for college, and then returning on weekends for visits, has caused great problems with my dad and stepmom. I never ment for my visits to cause them to fight. Dear God, please help them resolve their issues. I love my stepmom just as much as I love my real mom, and I couldn't bare to have her walk out of my life, just as so many others have done.
Also, God, could you please help my real mom understand my ways. It seems that she is jealous because I spend so much time with my stepmom. Please help my mom understand that it's not that I don't love her just as much, or more, than my stepmom, it's merely that my stepmom lives with me, and is always available, and is much easier to talk to. Please help my mom realize that I love her too, even though sometimes I might not tell her, or show her as much as I should. And God please help her find her own way through her relationships. She recently got out of a bad relationship, and is now happy with the man she is with, but as hard as I try God, I can't bring myself to like him. Please help her understand that it might just take time. This man brought 5 children into our lives, 5 of the brattiest, snottiest, rudest children I've ever met. I'm trying very hard to like them God, and I know it's not their fault that they havn't learned to brush their teeth, or flush the toilet, or even say excuse me after they burp, but please help them learn some manners and some respect. I also know it's not their fault that they were never taught that calling someone a "bit**" or saying "you're not my mother, I don't have to listen to you" when you are in someone elses home, is not only unacceptable but disrespectful, but God, please help them learn to be polite, especially to my mother. My mom washes their dirt filled, stinky clothes because their own mother is too much of a drunk to care about them, and my mother feeds them, and houses them, and puts new clothes on their backs, because again, their own mother is too drunk to care about them, but please God, help me understand why my mother treats her boyfriends children like gold, but treats me like her psychologist. Please help me understand why my mother can spend $100 on her boyfriend a pair of boots for christmas, and spend over $500 getting her car "tricked out", but has not contributed a cent towards my college education, and didn't even buy me a birth present this year. I am not gready God, but I find it unfair. Please help me understand why my mother finds it necessary, and even acceptable to tell me the ins and outs of her personal and sexual life as if I am her psychatrist(sp) and am getting paid to know what she caught her ex boyfriend doing. Please give me the strength to not spit on her ex boyfriend, even though in my heart, I know that he didn't do what she is accusing him of, and that my mom is just looking for attention, and trying to make me hate him.
And my dear God, who I've always counted on to bring me happiness and joy, please help me deal with my roommate. It seems as if I've gotten one of the worst possible roommates. Please give me the strength to avoid from duct taping her to the ceiling, and from nailing the metal window closed. I realize it isn't possible to nail a metal window closed, but at this point in time, I'm willing to try. Please help her realize that I am always cold, I have poor circulation, and by keeping the window open 24/7, even on the coldest days we've had so far, she's making me miserable. Also, please help her understand God that it's not polite, or acceptable to lend out my stuff without asking me. Also help her to be more tolorant of my phone conversations. I realize that I shouldn't be on the phone at 2:00 a.m. but when my friend needs someone to talk to, and I just need to cry, sometimes, 2:00 a.m. is the only time I feel comfortable enough in my room to do it. And please help her understand that her chomping and slurping of her food is driving me nuts. Please also give me a bit more patience and tolorance towards her. Everything shes doing lately is driving me crazy, no matter how hard I try not to let it. Right now shes eating popcorn, and I want to tell her to stop because she's chomping it, and it's very annoying. I don't find it fair that I have to have my head phones on 24/7 it seems like, in order to prevent myself from wanting to thwap her with a frozen salmon. I'm not paying all this money to be unhappy and as miserable as I am here, but please give me the strength to see the good in where I'm at, and help me apprichate it.
One more thing God, please keep my nephew and sister happy, healthy, and fed. My nephew means the world to me. I love that little boy more than anything else in this world, and I can't imagine my life without him. I never knew that it was possible to love someone as much as I love Kael, and I know that if anything ever happened to him, I wouldn't be able to continue my life. There are many people in the world who are much stronger than I am, but my life would seize to exist without Kael. He is my everything. He is the reason I wake up in the morning, the reason I go to sleep at night, the reason the world continues to revolve for me, and the reason I am still alive today. Please God, wrap your arms around this little boy, and protect him from all of the worlds harm, since I am unable to do so myself. You see, Kael lives in Arizona, and I have only seen him a handful of times since he was born, and he is now 3. I want to hold him forever, and protect him from everything, but because he is so far away, I'm unable to. Please assure him that I love him very much, and I'm thinking about him every single day of my life. I know my sister is doing her absolute best at taking care of him, but I know it's hard being a single mom. Please help her help herself. Please give her the strength and wisdom to keep her job she has now, and please help her give a good life to my nephew. He deserves everything good in this world, and I understand that it is unobtainable for my sister right now, but please just help her know that I love her, and I believe in her, and I trust that she is doing the absolute best she can, and please let her know that if theres anything I can do to help with lil man, that all she has to do is call me. Please also help her understand that I have commitments here in Wisconsin, at school, that I cannot abandon and move to Arizona. Please help her understand this, and not be angry with me.
And God, please keep my dad safe and healthy, and help him relax a little, and stop drinking so much. He's had a rough year, and he's always uptight. He yells way more than necessary, because he bottles up all of his frustrations, and then he takes them out on my stepmom and I. Please help him understand that it's not healthy to do this, and it's not necessary. It's making my stepmom and I very bitter towards him. Please help him relax a bit. Also God, could you please help him to stop drinking so much. It seems that he is drinking almost a 36 pack, if not more, a day, every day, and this isn't healthy. I love my dad very much, and I don't want to lose him any time soon. My dad has always been there for me, he's always supplied me with everything I need, and for that, I am very grateful. My dad has always been apart of my life, and I've always known how much he loves me, and because of that, I have it much better than some others in this world, but please just help him work on the little things. I am very grateful for him, and I wouldn't trade him for anything, but sometimes, he's hard to live with. Please help him see that, and help him change.
God, please help my brother and my little sister know how much they mean to me. I know I'm not always nice to my little sister, but I truely love her. And I know I don't show my brother how much I love him, but I really do. My brother and I have become very close this last year, and I want to thank you and God for that. It's given me an opportunity to see into his life, and that's more precious than any gift. God, please help my little sister. It seems as if she's gotten her life started on a rough track. She's only 13 God, and I fear she's already into drugs, and drinking, and I know she's already having sex. God, please help her. She's had a rough life so far, she's been drug through the mud, and often mistreated, and I fear she doesn't know that we all love her very much. Please help her understand that she is loved very much, although we may not show it. She often has an attitude problem, and as hard as we try, we often get angry with her. I feel bad because I am often short with her, but it's very hard to be kind sometimes. Please help her see that it's not her that we are upset with, it's her actions, and that we truly do love her.
And God please keep my chinchillas safe and healthy. I love them very much, and because I'm not at home during the week, I fear that something horrible will happen to them, please help them stay safe!
One last thing God, I just wanted to say thank you for everyone you've brought into my life this past year. They mean a lot to me, and everyone has shown me something about myself, and my life. And thank you, for giving me the opportunity to go spend Christmas with my nephew. As I stated before, he means the absolute world to me, and I'm so happy and grateful that I get to spend Christmas with him.
Thank you,
Tami