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SunsetBeauty
11-07-2004, 12:31 AM
Well my wonderful hedgie boy, Sonic left me last night.

It wasn't unexpected, but hurts just the same. A few weeks ago, I noticed that he wasn't eating much food; I was concerned, so I took him to the vet. Sonic was a garbage disposal - he lived for food!!

The vet found a lump on his upper jaw, did a biopsy and discovered it was cancerous. We discussed chemo/radiation, but vet said because of the location/type, would most likely not help and may actually hurt him in the long run. I decided not to go ahead with it and instead, take him home and make him as comfortable as possible. She warned me, he would most likely go quickly because of the nature/placement of the tumor.

After a very long and hard internal struggle, I decided to let nature take its course. I couldn't bare for him So, I took him home with me and prepared for the end, making him as comfortable as possible, hand-feeding him a special moist diet, keeping him warm, etc.

I supose I am thankful the cancer took him quickly, he did not appear to be in pain until yesterday.

Yesterday morning, he was still in good sprirts and walking. But he wouldn't let me check his mouth. I figured it was just a bad day for him, so I let it go. Last night (around 10 pm), when I went in to check on him, he was on his side in his litter box. When I took him out, I discovered blood all down the side of his face. I knew the end was close.

He seemed to be trying so hard to stay with me, I told him "I'm going to be okay, it's okay to leave, you won't be in pain anymore" It was 2 am when he finally slipped into his peaceful eternal slumber.

Even in the end, there was no huffing, hissing, or poking of quills. He was just my wondeful little hedgie boy.

I miss him so much. I can't believe he's gone. Sometimes, I wonder if I did the right thing by not trying chemo/radiation, but even the vet, who called me today to find out how Sonic was doing, said that she would have made the same choice if it had been one of her 5 hedgies.

I only hope he is in a better, happier place.

Good-bye my little angel. Mommy misses you so very much.

Nancy
11-07-2004, 08:43 AM
I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved Sonic. :( Hugs to you from all of us here.

paris26
11-07-2004, 09:02 AM
I am so sorry to hear about the loss of Sonic. Godspeed little one! Be a guardian angel for your mom at the Rainbow Bridge. My Wally will show you around until you can be reunited!

RoxieFaye
11-07-2004, 11:18 AM
I'm so sorry... That brought tears to my eyes... You did the right thing and Sonic new you loved him. He's comfy now... My heart goes out to you. Take care.

Q-Bert's Mom
11-07-2004, 12:50 PM
So sorry to hear about little SOnic. You did everything you possibly could have for him. Q-Bert will show him where to find the best mealies over the Rainbow Bridge!

jules_77
11-07-2004, 01:09 PM
so sorry for your loss

hedgewood
11-07-2004, 01:50 PM
I am so very sorry to hear about your loss. Your story brought tears to my eyes. Sonic sounded very sweet and very much loved. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

Schmuzzle's Mom
11-07-2004, 06:59 PM
I'm terribly sorry to hear about poor Sonic and his struggle with such a terrible disease. How brave you were to tell him it was ok to go even though I'm sure you were dying on the inside watching his last moments. Thank god he had such kindness and love through out his life and such a warm and heartfelt release. He will always be with you in spirit......rest assured he is so happy and pain free now. :nolove:

SunsetBeauty
11-08-2004, 03:28 PM
Thank you so much for the kind words. It's been a rough few days for me. I miss him so much. I cleaned out his cage yesterday and that was an ordeal.

Sonic is the first pet that I've known is going to die and I've had to watch him suffer through it. I just find myself out of sorts. When I came home from my morning class, I actually got out his soft food, fixed up a plate, and took it up to him....only, he wasn't there. I hate when I do that - I go through that iniatal burn of pain and grief all over again. I lost my grandfather (my best friend) 7 years ago, and to this day, there are still times when I run up to his room (now my bird room) yelling "Grandpa guess what?"

Do you think it's their way of letting us know they are thinking about us? I like to think so...it's just hard.

Mom and I talked about getting another hedgehog someday. She just thought I'd maybe like to get one now, as a tribute to Sonic. I'd like too, but it's too soon now. I figure I'll know when I'm ready, when I come across a picture in a classified ad that pulls at me. I'll know its Sonic, telling ME he's okay and it's time for me to not be in pain anymore.

Anyway, I suspose I should stop rambling.
Thanks again for all the comforting words. It helps to know there are people that care.

Kate