The End Of A Holiday

[aprild0727]

I have posted in another forum yesterday, that I had to put my albino hedgie, Holiday, to sleep. :nolove: She had a large cancerous mass on the right side of her jaw and throat. I have been trying to care for her and making her comfortable, but yesterday, I knew I could no longer give her any comfort. Yesterday afternoon, she was gaging on the blood in her throat and having trouble breathing, so I decided it was time to put her to sleep. It was a hard thing to do, but I knew it was the right thing. However, I feel a tremendous amount of guilt because I could not be with her when the vet did it. I just couldn't watch. :nolove:

I have been through hedgehog deaths before, and none of them have been easy. Both, Holiday and Tiggy-Winkle, have lived to be between five and six years, so I know they have lived a long and full hedgie life. With the comfort of that knowledge, I have been able to grieve but also be relieved.

[Ododad]

Please accept my condolences.

[teela1342]

Yesterday afternoon, she was gaging on the blood in her throat and having trouble breathing, so I decided it was time to put her to sleep. It was a hard thing to do, but I knew it was the right thing. However, I feel a tremendous amount of guilt because I could not be with her when the vet did it. I just couldn't watch. :nolove:

Guilt serves no purpose. You did everything you could and loved as much as you could. I am so sorry for your loss.

[Lydia]

I think that most of us have gone through losses in our lives; whether human or companion animal... when my sweet puppy, Molly was put to sleep just 3 weeks shy of her 15th birthday I grieved terribly and for a long time... although it was the only thing we could do (she'd been sick for so long and by the end was suffering too much), we all experience guilt and remorse and all of the other emotions which are so normal with these experiences... 8 years after the fact, I still experience feelings of guilt about the suicide of one of my best friends. Although it never takes away the pain, please be comforted that there are many hearts out here, like mine, who know that pain and will think about and pray for you over the coming days.

Lots of hedgie hugs.

[Kerrie]

I am so sorry for your loss.:(
I am sure she had a wonderful life and knew how much she was loved by you.
It is very hard to let go of these wonderful little critters, but you did what was best for her. She is free of pain and running free with all our beloved, departed hedgies that have crossed over the rainbow bridge.
Rest in Peace Holiday! :angel:

[Nancy]

I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved girl.

Hugs :)

[primate]

sorry for your loss. :(
im sure holiday was loved and she knew it.
guilt is an honest emotion when you feel like somehow you failed or feel like you could have done more. you did all you could. my condolences.

[Ginger]

(hugs)
Sorry to hear that. :(
I am sure you were a great mommy to her.

[Love4Hedgies]

I'm so sorry for you loss. Sending lots of hedgie hugs and love your way.

[PrettyHate]

So sorry to hear about your baby.

Dont feel guilty...you did everything you could for your girl. She was loved, and she knew it.